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Minister Les Ferguson Jr. remarried after the murder of his first wife, Karen, in 2011. In this 2014 photo, he shakes hands with a church member after a Sunday morning assembly. Beside him is his second wife, Becki.
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In ‘Still Wrestling,’ minister whose wife, son were slain explores faith, doubt

For Les Ferguson Jr., writing a book was a way to deal with his own hurt and pain — and help others, too.

A double murder. A destroyed family. A shattered faith.

After the tragic deaths of his wife and 21-year-old son in 2011, minister Les Ferguson Jr. struggled not to believe that God existed but that he cared.

Les Ferguson Jr. Still Wrestling: Faith Renewed Through Brokenness. Abilene, Texas: Leafwood Publishers, 2018. 224 pages. $14.99.

Les Ferguson Jr. Still Wrestling: Faith Renewed Through Brokenness. Abilene, Texas: Leafwood Publishers, 2018. 224 pages. $14.99.

In the newly released “Still Wrestling: Faith Renewed Through Brokenness,” Ferguson explores questions of faith and doubt that helped lead him to a stronger, deeper relationship with his Creator.


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Ferguson preaches for the Lake Harbour Drive Church of Christ in Ridgeland, Miss., north of Jackson. He discussed the 224-page book in a telephone interview with The Christian Chronicle.

Question: What compelled you to write this book? Why was it important to you?

Ferguson: I guess this is the result of blogging. At the time, the blog was called “Desperately Wanting to Believe Again.” I blogged my way into wanting to write a book.

This is my way of not only dealing with all of my own hurt and pain and loss and difficulty, but also wanting to help others who struggle, too.

Q: How difficult was the process of writing this and getting it published?

Ferguson: Writing it was kind of hard. Some of the things I wrote about were difficult. I went through periods of time where I didn’t write because I was afraid.

It’s kind of crazy — I was afraid of failure and afraid of success.

I’d write awhile, and then I’d get, I guess, discouraged or allow myself to think nobody would want to read this.

Les Ferguson Jr.

Les Ferguson Jr.

Q: How long did the writing process take?

Ferguson: Off and on for three years. When I decided to make it an every- week thing — at least one chapter a week — it went fast then.

Q: What did you learn along the way?

Ferguson: Wow. A lot. I learned a lot about myself. I learned a lot about God. I learned that writing isn’t easy. I learned that writing is easy. It just depends on the topic and how you approach it.


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I learned you really need great editors. I had some fantastic editors who helped me craft the story. They challenged me to go back and look at things and maybe even change my mind and reframe.

Also, I learned that I should have taken typing back in high school.

Q: What kind of response have you received to the book?

Ferguson: I’ve been told they’re already on a second printing from the day they released it. Amazon can’t keep up with it.

Every bit of feedback I’ve gotten has been extremely positive and enthusiastic.

Q: Am I right that you’ve had one book signing?

Ferguson: I had one in Jackson. They had 100 books that they had ordered, and I had 40 that I ended up bringing inside, and they all sold out.

Q: How did that make you feel?

Ferguson: That made me feel real good because I was afraid it wasn’t going to do very well (laughing).

That’s what God is looking for — for us to wrestle with him and to continue to grow. That’s a part of the struggle.

Q: What do you hope people take away from reading “Still Wresting?”

Ferguson: That no matter how broken they are, no matter how damaged they might be, no matter how difficult life is, God is still here — and they just need to keep wrestling with him.

Q: Are you still wrestling? Or do you feel like you’re in a much better place than a few years ago?

Ferguson: Oh, I’m definitely in a better place than I was a few years ago. But what I think I’ve learned is that I’ll always be wrestling.

That’s what God is looking for — for us to wrestle with him and to continue to grow. That’s a part of the struggle.

Minister Les Ferguson Jr. remarried after the murder of his first wife, Karen, in 2011. In this 2014 photo, he shakes hands with a church member after a Sunday morning assembly. Beside him is his second wife, Becki.

Minister Les Ferguson Jr. remarried after the murder of his first wife, Karen, in 2011. In this 2014 photo, he shakes hands with a church member after a Sunday morning assembly. Beside him is his second wife, Becki.

 

 

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